My heart broke Tuesday night

my heart brokeMy heart broke Tuesday night, as I watched the unthinkable happen. Hillary Clinton, the most qualified presidential candidate ever to run in my lifetime, was defeated by a racist, sexist, mysoginist, bullying, pathological liar.

Of course, it didn’t help that Clinton was a woman.

Ironically, she won the popular vote, but our antiquated electoral-college system gave it to the other guy.

What has happened to our country? What is happening in the world?

I have always known the U.S. was a racist, sexist country, but never knew just how racist and sexist until now. Yet when there is an infection, a festering wound, the puss that comes out also leads the way to healing.

Hopefully that is what will happen here. Seeing what is wrong in our country is the first step to fixing it.

I know that many people didn’t like Hillary Clinton, and I think that most of that dislike was undeserved. I have followed her career for decades, and admired her grit and dedication.

  • People have called her too guarded, but if you had her history, you’d be guarded, too. Women of our generation who have pursued professional careers had a big mountain to climb to pave the way for those who came after. I was once turned down for a job by being told, “you’re very well qualified but I’m afraid if I hire and train you, you’ll get pregnant and leave.”   [There are laws against that now, fortunately.]
  • I remember her being vilified for taking on a big cause [healthcare] as First Lady, when most First Ladies promoted simpler, less controversial causes.
  • I saw her vilified for going by her maiden name, Hillary Rodham – so much so that she ended up going back to the last name of Clinton to silence the critics. I’ve written before about the questionable habit of women taking their husband’s last name when they marry. That’s a holdover from the days when women were considered the property of their husbands. Haven’t we come farther than that?
  • She was criticized for standing by her husband when it was revealed he had an affair, and criticized by others for not leaving him. Make up your mind, America.
  • Hillary has told the story of sitting for the law school bar exams and, when the proctor left the room, men in the room would make catcalls telling the women to get out because women shouldn’t be lawyers. What do you do in the face of such misogyny? Put your head down, your guard up and, keep on going. Of course she’s guarded, as most women are who have been through that shit.
  • I have been astounded at, and saddened by, the lies spread about her and readily believed. Because she’s a woman; because she’s the first, because she had the audacity to run for an office always held by men.

Her wounds are every woman’s wounds.

I have admired her grace and determination under pressure; her decorum and dignity in debates when her opponent constantly interrupted and threatened her. She has been inspiring.

“I still believe as deeply as I ever have, that if we stand together and work together with respect for our differences, strength in our convictions, and love for this nation, our best days are still ahead of us.” Hillary Clinton concession speech

The resurrection of the Goddess

There was a time in the early history of humanity that God was viewed as a woman.

How we went from female/earth-based religions to patriarchy is the subject of a legion of books that I won’t go into here.

In actual fact, in ancient times, it would be male and female energies together, because the Divine is both male and female. When you don’t honor both, you leave half of God out of the equation.

If you go back to Aramaic, the original language of Christ, you will find that The Lord’s Prayer which today starts with “Our Father” should more accurately be translated as, “Father, Mother, God.”

talk with mother earthIn early history, the Earth was our Mother and honored as such. In my experience, native peoples still honor the earth, but the influence of Christianity has caused many to change their view of the Creator back to male.

When I was traveling through Mexico a year ago with my Maya teacher, I noticed that many of the shrub-covered hillsides were pyramid shaped. I asked him if there were old Maya ruins under them. He replied that, indeed there were, and that only a small percentage of all the Maya cities have been excavated and dug out.

He also said they’ve discovered that the newest ruins being excavated were originally dedicated to the Divine Feminine. And that the Maya believe that now is the time for the return of the Divine Feminine to bring balance back to the earth and her people.

So we had this amazing opportunity to bring back the feminine in the form of a female president of the United States. And what happened? The male patriarchy shot her down.

Because it’s time for the Divine Feminine to return, the patriarchy will fight that much harder to repress her. And we just can’t let that defeat us,.

To a great extent, this election was influenced by three white male organizations:

The FBI, the KGB and the KKK, among other forms of patriarchy:

  • The FBI by Director Comey inappropriately announcing a week before the election that there were more emails to be examined, then a week later announcing, oh, never mind, there was nothing wrong there.
  • The KGB by Russians hacking Democratic Party emails and releasing them to Wikileaks who in turn released them to the world. Big investigation and hearings over Hillary’s emails and, once again, there was nothing wrong there.
  • The KKK – the white supremacist organization – which supported Donald Trump and gave voice to a large segment of our population who are filled with hate against anyone not white.
  • By a concerted voter suppression effort to keep the poor, and minorities, away from the polls because those segments of our society tend to be Democrats.
  • By fear. “My life/job/finances aren’t working, so let’s make a dramatic change in our government and see if that helps.”
  • By a failure in our education system to teach Civics – how our government works. A shocking number of our populace haven’t read the U.S. Constitution and don’t understand how our democracy works. They think that a president can make sweeping changes that they simply can’t without the support of Congress.
  • And the Divine Feminine in the form of Mother Earth is under attack by corporate greed and pollution and oil companies who keep building pipelines that break and pollute our waters and land. Raping the land, raping the Mother.

I could go on, but I’m sure you get the drift.

The Earth is a woman and she is the one that lost Tuesday night- she is hurting just as we all are by the sudden realization that our society is not as enlightened as we had hoped. That we are not all as safe as we thought we were.

But we can be, if we don’t get discouraged. If we continue the fight for the environment, for voting rights, for equal rights for all; if we sign petitions, work and donate to causes we believe in.

To my fellow women: don’t feel defeated in in the face of discrimination, sexual harassment and disrespect. Find your inner warrior and follow the Maori teaching: “Know who you are and stand tall.”

So that the next time a woman runs for any elected office, she will win with ease, because the warrior in all of us will fight hard to support the Maya prophecy of the return of the Divine Feminine. Our country will be ready because we paved the way.

And how do you defeat hate and darkness?

my heart brokeBy being the light.

By going high when they go low.

Praying for those stuck in fear and darkness.

“When you don’t get the leader or government or luck you want in life, you get 30 minutes to sulk. Then you get up and get to work being the change you want to see in the world. The only real loss is in resigning your beliefs and efforts because of a few setbacks.” Brendon Burchard.

There you have it – do the work, raise your vibration.

Be kind to everyone because we all need it now.

Find a cause you believe in and fight for it.

See the best in people; don’t gossip and don’t believe gossip [that goes for you, Hillary-haters]. Do your homework rather than blindly believing every post on Facebook.

The light always outshines the darkness.

Together we can resurrect this nation, and world, to something better.

“Never stop believing that fighting for what’s right is worth it.” Hillary Clinton



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  1. Joan Mikasha-Alexander

    Thanks for posting this. I feel this is Coyote medicine to inspire us all to look at the real systemic issues in not only the country but our world. We are all one family and belong to the Sacred Circle of Life. What we do to each other we do to the web. This is a call to shake up the branches or spokes on the web to shine our lights and take peaceful action. Be unified and stand up for what I believe and not give up the fight. I believe this is the true message. Shining Little White Eagle

    • Molly Larkin

      Very well said. Thank you for sharing. Yes, there is a lot of work to be done!

  2. Miranda

    Very well written article and exactly how I have felt since the election. I can’t believe the amount of hatred, ugliness and fear that ruled the day.

    • Molly Larkin

      Yes, shocking. All the more reason for us to live from love and light. We have a big challenge in front of us.

  3. Linda Schmelter

    Well said Molly! A lot of folks are feeling the same way. I guess we need a “shake up” in order to create positive change and it sure seems like &*%$##! has hit the fan. Once we get through this transition, better times are on the way!

    • Molly Larkin

      Let’s pray that is so! And work towards it by opening our hearts and minds to embrace everyone.

  4. Joan

    Thank you for this timely post. I will read it again in the coming days as I come to grips with the reality that the people of America are not even close to who I believed them to be. Even those I have known and been close to my entire life chose to vote out of their fears rather than their hopes, not realizing that the idea of safety and security is an illusion, smoke and mirrors. I cannot seem to let go of the deep disappointment I feel that the ones who voted for the illusion of security did so by sacrificing the safety and well being of so many others.
    I have felt this grief before in the passing of loved ones. A physical presence that lives in my chest as a heavy weight. Yet, I still have that numb feeling, a surreal sensation that won’t allow me to even cry just yet.
    I want to share these beautiful insights on FB but have closed my account at least for the length of time I need to regain a more centered awareness. It is going to take me some time to be able to look at the face of America now that her mask has been removed so completely.

    • Molly Larkin

      I agree that it’s important we take the time to grieve. But then we must pick ourselves up and try to be light-bearers, because there is so very much work to be done.

  5. Chris


    You hit it on the head. While HRC was not my first choice (Dr. Jill Stein had my heart) I think your analysis of what she has had to contend with and how it likely shaped her temperament is on point. You’d have to be made of steel to have survived the half of it.

    I see DJT as a cancerous reflection of our insidiously entrenched collective national shadow. I can only hope, and will pray ceaseless to the Divine (Divine Mother whose grace, guidance, love and mercy we need now more than ever) that in bringing it to light through him (via a power position that he neither deserves nor I believe will be able to handle, hopefully not to all our ultimate detriment) we can integrate this shadow, and thus elevate our collective consciousness.

    I have two daughters. I expected to have to attempt to explain many difficult things to them. Never this.

    God be with us all.

    BTW I shared this piece on my FB. Check it out if you get a chance:

    Pax et amor,


    • Molly Larkin

      Yes, explaining this result to our children will be the hardest part.

  6. Petra

    I’m with you. I think it’s time for a renewed civil rights movement, inclusive of a diversity of spiritualities, all of us.

  7. Lesa

    Thank you, Molly. May Father/Mother/God Bless you and all of us for the Highest Good. “And so it is.” Namaste

    • Molly Larkin

      And the same to you. 🙂

  8. Bill

    You are right on Molly. Hillary got the most votes, and an electoral “system” that once again overturned the majority of the people rule.

    Your insight into how white males influenced this election is profound… FBI, KGB, KKK, fear, lack of Civics in education, and the underlying male dominated corporate/political institutions attacking the feminine / Mother Earth.

    It all makes sense… dominate women, rape and pillage Mother Earth in the name of progress. The age of male dominated delusions are now a frenzied wave expanding political domination throughout world… England/Brexit, Philippines, US, maybe even France. Billionaires lusting for more till they rule everything. Their locker room talk and behavior now transparent for all to see.

    So what to do… be the light that we are. Know and connect with our true selves every day. Everyday prayer, meditation, is vital. Share this light with grace and dignity as best we can everyday. Know our Creator given gift and use it. Our time to use our gift is always, right now. Be Kind.

    Thank you for your writings.

    • Molly Larkin

      Thank you, Bill, for being the light that you are.

      • Bill

        The following excerpt concluded writings that Lily S posted in the SalmonJourneys blog on Monday prior to the election… May we all find nourishment in Grandmother Moon’s brilliance:
        On Monday evening, November 14, the nation’s night skies will be lit by a scrumptiously brilliant supermoon. Perhaps that light will illumine what we ultimately decided. Perhaps it will shine some clarity on our impatience with ourselves, our values, our neighbors, and our country. And perhaps it will light our way to the future. Perhaps in its reflected glow, we will further separate wheat from chaff and find some grains of truth, some necessary nourishment with which to strike out toward tomorrow and the peace-on-Earth-for-all that many of us want but few of us know how to attain.

        • Molly Larkin

          Excellent, comforting insight. Thank you for sharing.

  9. Kat

    I truly believe that this is a move forward, as shocking as it may seem. We do have much to grow from and to do so, we have to see it first.

    But to learn and grow, we MUST see it. To see, we must look for the view outside of our ours. Why did so many vote Trump? Was it really because of a female or white hate? I am sure some of it. However, I have spent much time getting to know Trump supporters. I believe most, if not almost all, would vote for a woman ( had they not been manipulated to belueve her evil…. good to know) and most dont care if your color is different. However, they do not feel heard. Whites are villified now, Trump made them feel heard. It is that simple.

    We can’t ignore any part of us if we are going for real change. We have to look at the Trump voter and ask why, and be ready to hear and see outside of our own conclusions.

    I hope this does wake up real possibility to heal. It always get darker first.

    • Molly Larkin

      Very eloquent, Kat. I agree.

  10. Marty

    So well written, Molly. Thank you!

    • Molly Larkin

      You’re so welcome. Thank you for commenting.

  11. connie widdis

    To my Granddaughters and all who pray and live for an inclusive country: “Remember your deep roots. Breathe deeply and don’t respond to unkind words. You are the Light!”

    • Molly Larkin

      Beautiful, Connie. Thank you!

  12. Audrey

    Preach on Sister!!! You are absolutely correct and wish more of what you wrote would have been brought up over and over again during the campaign. She has been through so much as a women in the man’s world of politics. Why is it that she has to be nice and sweet to get another woman to trust her when a huge loudmouth, hotheaded, hater of anyone who is not a white man can win an election. Religious people wanted her defeated but it was never discussed why….all because of a single issue- the fear of man having women gain power and keeping controlling of reproductive rights.
    You also are correct on fixing something in the the electoral system…the electoral vote.
    Word has to get out on actions to fix this…whom to complain to and make changes. Any suggestions?
    Plus our Christianity needs to start including a mother God, not just a father God. It may never happen with Christianity but women have got to start waking up and pushing for equality in Religion!!! This has to start being discussed and yes I went there. This isn’t feminism it is about equality for women.
    But for some stupid reason turning God into a woman would make “him” less of a God. Where would us woman be if we didn’t call God a Father?
    Maybe going back to Native American roots and calling God…The Great Spirit ( which is non human and no dominant sex). This masculine energy has got to be decreased and the nuturing, loving Mother energy increased. Many people do not understand how this all started but the church (Roman Catholicism) took the Romans’ way of control and power….our way or no way and it was man’s way.

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